Pigeons...

Wrote the following on boxing day after a conversation with hammy

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Communication evolution has changed so much over 1000++ yrs..
From taking years/months/days to pass a message manually...
Then developed technique to manage such process like posting services
More interesting ones was the usage of animals such as pigeons which hardly can depend on..

Now...is just a touch of a keypad or screen, and the message is sent out.
Yet the delivering some times feels the like PIGEONS..
Is often send out..yet at times..the message is not replied or at worst, lost in this data packet zone.

Very much the pigeon, that has lost its way or got gunned down by hunters. Else too many pigeons flying together..they just take their time to rest and chat. Or could it be the recipient, kept the pigeon the "prisoner" ..maybe they need them for supper..

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

All About Christmas~

Pinky gathered all for a lovely pre-Chrismas dinner @ The Vines Restaurant
Felt good dining together after so long. Even got gifts from some of them..was delightful.
Food, wine, desserts...we had a feast of goodness.




Christmas EVE
poor poor day, I spent hours shopping trying to get gifts for those who gave me.
A headache i developed as I pace up and down Vivo City.
Trying to think hard on each items I should get for the individuals.

Was tired, hungry and feeling weak with every minute ticking away.
All that, resulted me missing the family dinner & birthday Celebration of my youngest cousin.
Angry with myself, that I had to head home and eat a lonely lonely instant maggi on my own.
I head on to chill with Sexy and gfs at union..buT it was not splendor at all.
Lousy was the conclusion but i enjoy the companionship i had


Xmas Arrived
Spent my dinner with 2 person, a sweet lovely gal & a generous boy.


Dinner was at Bistro Petie Salute.
The place so simple, and the food was simply great.
Delightful I had a such companionship over such food & wine.




Another lovely little one in the restaurant, just as sweet as the dessert I had


Boxing Day..
Headed to Ling abbot to meet up the rest for drinks & food.
I love the company..and she got me gift for me that pose with great challenge.
EARRINGS!!!
I love the blur effect of the tree

I made lychee martinis for all while we all watch DVDs
We tucked in to food, drinks..n filling up wish-cards for the xmas tree.
Ended up so tired, all spent a night at Ling's place..


-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Climbing Guilt

Cause him to fall from 5m high..all to my lack on concentration and slow reaction.
Is terrible shock to him n myself. with a double doze of guilt too.

Dunno know do what can make that pain remorse go away.

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Feeling the 'Familiar'

'Familiar' has always been there.
Yet now distance has be place in-between 'Familiar' and me.
Behave and act the same, yet everything seems different at the same time.
It feels simple, too simple. Unreal to some degree.

Stranger it has become at some point.
What was there to expect when the distance was created by me.
Wanted to hold on to that 'Familiar', yet the rules says NO.

Knowing it is there yet unable to reach out for it, it seems awkward.
And I seems to be greedy wanting more in my mind.
How to balance out this emotion within me.


-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

The Office Party

Maybe the most "outrageous" & hilarious production I have seen for 2008.
Very realistically complex relationships that surface in alot of multiplex working environment.

I do feel certain scenes are slightly streamline.
Love the closeness these actors are to audience since the theater is small.
The actors were very 'interactive' too, an audience's mobile set off the interaction, made everyone laughed & the actors abit awkward.

Lovely night of laughter i was bestowed.

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Shanghai Rouge...

SHanghai Rouge..was just after my 21 km run in the morinng.
Was super exhuasted after the run. Yet was not able to catch any sleep at all before the event.

Headed to Sexy's place to meet up before heading now to Victoria Theater..
Irony since that was the last landmark I saw before finishing my 21 KM.

The theme was good, crowd where were mostly dressed.
Lovely dance items was also put up, highly entertaining..




I wasn't able to dance much since body is screaming for rest..
Super amazed to see Ani & Sean who did 42 Km and still dance throughout the night.
Yet only ended at home after 3 am, since were out for supper with bunnies n Eric couple.



Enjoyable Shanghai Feel..

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Singapore Marathon 2008

EVENT:	S&C Singapore Marathon - Half Marathon
DATE:	Sunday, December 7, 2008
BIB/DIV:	34526 / F2529
TIME:	2h:53m:59s (gun) / 2h:49m:3s (net)

Something super achieving and tormenting at the same time.
Stress, upset, doubtful all the emotion..seeking for familiar face through-out the journey was tormenting too. But the lunch was good ..compensate the work I did thru the 21 Km..




-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Tempted

I so tempted to talk to u, so tempted to get ur attention..
Yet feels so out of place & redundant to msg u in any form n means, since the returns are never fruitful.

If I do, somehow feels wasted, since u got so many other ppl to interact with constantly.
And I'm like the least of your interaction option after filtration is done

Is such a silly thought, that surfaces occasionally.
Maybe you are busy, maybe I assume too much...it is just a Limerence stage I'm at.
How to get out of it?

PS: For Hammy, Angie n Bunny..plus many many more...

below are extracted comments from FB..aiyoo how every exciting n spontaneous

Jacelyn Pang
It's a horrible feeling, I know....

You have to go thru this, and as time passes, you will eventually focus your attention elsewhere..... only thought abt it occasionally,

and then forgotten as it went into the warehouse box.....
and then you will be occupied with other things

Life goes on.... eventhough its so hard now.....

~love yourself~
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Chan Sing Eu
Is it a "he", "she" or "it"? hehehe...
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Esty Chia Szu Tee
Poor You. Take care.. time will cure your heart.. ;-)
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Bunny
Sing Eu..love ur comment..haha..entertaining to the max.
Hit the bulls-eye of the note..hahaa
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Meow
Babe are u alrite?
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Jacky Tan
May I know the person you referring abt is it "Spider" ?
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Belinda Woon
well life is never perfect.. gal u have to think thru, it he/she/ it is really what u wan, go for it.. try hard, whatever the outcome, so u have no regrets..

if u need ears, i am here baby..
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Jacelyn Pang
yes, i agree with belinda. try your best so that you don have regrets. if it work out, good for you, if it didn't, at least you have tried and its easier to move on after that
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Pauline Limmin
gal..i am here too
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Rachel Zhou
you are setting up a brick wall in front of yourself. put your tempt aside, step forward, and let things flow naturally ...
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Sophia Chen
To be natural,to be yourself. if he shows no interest, nothing can keep him stay...dear, cheer up.. always be happy :)
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Angie Ng
haha, val, steady..i also been so so tempted to get my sis attention since she is buzy..so we juz wait lo..until they come and suprise us. Believe me, the feel of being suprised is so great..haha..my sis is coming..yeah yeah~~

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

'New' weekend experience..

Was really talked into trying wakeboarding for monthss by jasper..
and it HAPPENED !!! i still ponder on how i agree on the event.
yet..the weather was not on my side..for a NEWBIE wakeboarder..

Weather before my WakeBoarding Started



Clouds formed..Darken...and Surrounded our tiny speed-boat.
When it finally poured..it hit us hard..very hard...worst when in motion thru the rain.
I didnt succeed to stand on the board..but the experience was exciting yet scary.
Since the rain was too heavy, wakeboarding session was shorten.

Since the wakeboarding did not created too much impact on my body, lucky for the shorten duration..hehe..i head on for some salsa in the evening. But sort of over did my body by doing so.





On sunday, ZOO !!
It has been decaets since I last visited the Singapore Pride.
Interesting combination, Ling , Angie, Rachel n me, 4 ladies..
The weather was favourable too us.. After tucking in breakfast at the Zoo, the tour started.
We lasted till the Zoo closed at 5 pm..goosh..we did stay long..



-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

不舍得

和他一起吃饭，眼泪不由自足的掉下。
情绪-点都不稳定。
为什么要在离开后才有这样的不舍得。
人类有那么依恋失去的事物吗？
我把他下了一跳，自己做的决定，为何现在好相有点疑惑。
以大推的不舍得涌上心头。
现在的我又哭了。

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

20 November 2008

This november seems unbearable rain befalling. Writing this, tears are just streaming like river across.

After 5 years, i feel tight in my chest when offered the change. A sense of misery and anger burst into tears. A wave of emotion dwell up the remaining of the day. Unable to dispense even with exercise. But with the awakening, things still feels as cold.

Next day, his birthday, after 8 years..is yet another tearful night I had to go through. Broken the ice we build up over the past months..giving our emotions the last stand trial. I don't know the answer to him is valid, but he seems prepared.
Such an awful day to start and end. I tried to avoid. Yet bond build in years, walls pushed yet fences around us.

Gave the final stand still to my time, his time and our time. I dunno is that a relieve for him, for me, for us. But for now, is fair and cleared to some degree.
Wonder is that the path to take on. What awaits for us, for him, for me now..



-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

~One Fine Day~

Listening to radio this very moment, the Jazz version of "One Fine Day" was aired.
It brings me back to that year, 1997 i think.

How time flies by, 11 years passed. It still seems fresh. A teenager in the cinema watching this romance comedy (then knew nothing about the comedy part). Cinema was quite empty..cold..only had a friend with me.

Remember how the rain cast the setting, how laughed thru some funny parts, thinK i teared too..i like that part with the goldfish..haha..of cos the fallen leaves..

I loved that moment of my life..somehow, it has a floaty feeling too, watching the 2 characters coming together..magical moments of live...


-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Marley & Me

It has been nearly a month since I finish the book "Marley & Me"
Little did I know what to expect from this book after I eyed on the Border's Catalog for some time, and lay my hands on it when I reached the bookstore.

It was something more and writing about a dog, more on how Marley brought life to a pair of adults.

It made me tear quite on several occasion, unexpectedly while I was reading on the bus/train. That made me panic since public crying is kind of embarrassing with no better reasons but about a book...

The book struck me, on how Bob gave life to my family, nearly apart within. But also make me wonder the remaining changes it has yet to come for Bob's lifespan in my family. I'm really not good with breakaways.

Yet Bob never really show real affection towards me. Attempts to bite me & ignore me, yet he still gets my attention. What kind of animal power it has over me...hahaha...furthermore, its a small DOG~.. Well he has the go-go power..hahaa..

Something real, light to read. Can fully embrace the energy Marley has at disbelieves (count me lucky Bob does not have such energy level, Woohoo)

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Marina Barrage

An Out-oF-CycLe trip suggested by Moo~ to Marina Barrage on 1st Nov 09

Carnival was held over the weekend for visitors to sight-see, the reservoir build.
Of cos..the Govt money spent..hahaa

So there we go, few Mountain Tortoise cum Mini-CoWorker Outing sets off.
The place attracted quite a crowd. Took random pictures of the places & ourselves.
Hot sun baking everyone, umbrella popping everywhere.

There were also water sports..FOC...so there we went...Kayaking...Just to find out of 4 of us, 2 have never done it before..Very very trilling, Lucky i got spare clothing..aiyoo..was WET as the tide generated by a passing-by ferry crash into my kayak..sigh..

Hahaa...Moo~ insist on taking photo of kayak after we came back to dry land.
Took the Last ferry arranged for the Carnival back to the City...Very enjoyable Ride...

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

FINE CUTS!

Located @ Central Mall basement, there is nothing spectacular about that shop.
People would think is a meat deli, where you can purchase quality meat home.
True to that point, but there also grill and allow to savor on the spot.

Sitting is small, might not be too comfy if the group is big.
Nothing on the ambience one can give rating on, as is more like eat and go in supermarket.
But selection of meat available at good pricing is the key to the concept.

Nothing very fancy, just choice the meat you want based on the price you willing to pay and the size you can eat. From 200g - 400g, may varies.
It comes with mash potato and russian salad (cold veg mix with potato n onion).

If wallet is loaded, Kobe should be the deal on thy plate else US beef also taste just as good.

Hope this concept strives on for meat goers



-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Rushing Thru My Mind

So many thing just flooded into my mind.
Regardless the category it belong too, all seems hard to breakdown.

It was a wave that just crash onto me, losing my balance.
It becomes even harder to move beyond the thought.

Endless cycle of questioning and answering, did not prove to be useful.
Bounded by the these, unable to function at will.
Need to move out of this boxed up thought...


-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Love Or In Love

Love is a difficult subject, for many reasons is not measureable or explanable
Is love or in love that would make the difference?


-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Vicky Christina Barcelona

One movie that I waited a week to watch.
How long the waiting was..to even experience some pain at some point...

The film gave a quirky & witty feeling, with all the simple yet complex human desires and relationship. Unique part was the narrating done thru out the movie...the voice..clean, calm & charming.

If I describe MamaMia's Greece as Berry Sorbet..
then Vicky Christina Barcelona will be Warm Chocolate Souffle..

This movie has a ending..so clean..yet so open..making Barcelona so much more magical with heated passion left untouched.

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Dishearted Moments

Last week went by..mainly with a lot of more bad moments..
Communication was down with the Team..
Not attending birthday lunch event.
Body failed to stay healthy...getting sick..
Legs in pain hence can't sleep well nor dance well.
Rejections from all when I needed companion.
Failed to watch a movie that I had yearning since the start of the week.

I wished all these would turn out better this week.

Just want someone comfortable to be around me when I needed it.

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Exciting..yet draining weekend.

-:- F1 -:-
Benefited of being there, all thanks to my buddy ...The vibe was running thru my body constantly.

-:- Salsa -:-
Continuation of motion after F1. Can't help it since Sexy was going..Need to meet her since so hard to catch her.
-:- Gym -:-
After a long long night, next day Was GYM in the morning..Oh My Oh My..tired..n burnt.
-:- Leg Massage -:-
Can't manage all the ache I have accumulated over the week. Hence evening head for another..mini torture to fix those achy legs.
-:- DVD Marathon -:-
After the therapy, it was on to another $$$ saving event. DVD Marathon with friends.
Watched until 5 am in the morning before I roll back home..
-:- Rock Climbing -:-
Before I could sleep enough on the beautiful sunday, I was up before noon and preparing for another physical activity which I could..NEVER NEVER imagine myself doing it. My friend..really have persuasive skills..Keep psycho me over the months..till I said YES. It was exciting, new, interesting...will do it again..
But that was another LONG LONG day..

This weekend has been..OVER BURN!!!

tired..aching is the ultimate output...

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Low Energy

I can't concentrate..maybe lacking of sleep.
After workout felt more exhausted. Need to really get some focus done.

Had too much running thru my mind the whole of yesterday..
Some light-hearted contents for dancing and sudden sparks in the life of others
Some heavy on personal well-being and unexpected understanding of another towards me.
Some saddening departs of people I know.

So much seems to go thru at one go. And none i can grasp in full control despite priority given to all the situations. Haiz~...so many un-answered thoughts.
Feeling tired..

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-

Oktoberfest @ Swiss Club..

After all the headaches of replacement and venue meeting etc..the event took place!!!

Summarized :
Fun is the statement..
Food is the enjoyment..
Drinks is the energy..
Music is the vibe..

Great moments I had with my friends, also felt great such a carnival well done at home ground..
Oooh..the vibe really brings everyone in the mood.

-= A liTTle Crazy worLd =-